I guess whatever I write, does'nt matter.. look like my ancestors are'nt reading anyway...

I don't know who I want to write this to...I just know I need to write it.
To my grandmother Norah... I'm sorry that I don't use the " H " in my name.
I know that I an named after you, but growing up, I never knew about the H at the
end of my name....I'm sorry for that.

To my Grandfather Tom... in every picture of you, you always have smiling
twinkling eyes.. I love them..I love you and my gran, and really wish I could
have known you .

My Gran Cathy...thank you for always loving me...for giving me the values
I needed in my life...for accepting me no matter what. I learned from you
to have compassion, to love God..oh how I miss you...

To my mum..... this is hard to say, but I do have questions...
Why did you leave ? I mean I know why..I know you
left to be with him..
You did'nt just leave my dad..you left us all...three children.
Was it really more important for you to go with him?
I wish you could tell me...  I can't imagine just leaving
my children .
I think about it a lot these days, even though I'm older..it still hurts,
do you know that ?

Dad...I love you more than words can say...wish you were here right now

Is there anyway I can get a hug from any one of you...I need it...
Crying  helps,..a little..
If any of you feel like helping me with my family history, I would
sure appreciate it.  I took the ancestry DNA..I really need some results on my Newman
side..I'm feeling lost...so you Newmans..please help...Love you x x

Dear Mum...
I did the Ancestry DNA, and actually I'm not getting much from it.
I was really hoping that I would get hits for my Newman side, but nothing.
Its getting me wondering... a lot !
Anyway. can you please help me..I need to get somewhere on this..its actually driving me crazy..
I know you can do it... 

A Letter to David McGowan

Dear Great Grandfather David McGowan,
I am having a hard time finding information out on your parents, and could sure
use some help.
If you feel so inclined, could you please help me.
I dont know where they were born, except I know its in Ireland..Northern Ireland, I dont know who
their parents are..I dont know their marriage date..I dont really know anything.

Dear Great Grandfather, why did you move from Ireland to Greenock, Scotland?
You had such a big family, and you died so tragically..how hard it must have been
for them when they lost you.
I'm sorry for the trials you had... I love you.
You have a great posterity...there are a lot of us...you would be proud

Waiting for your help ,
Your Great Grandaughter,

Norah